I'm sorry to hear about your cat,its going to take a long time to get over him,my gismo was killed 3 months,she was almost 17 yrs old ,and a dog chased her causing her to have a massive heart attack..I'm crying now while I'm writing this..because i miss her so much,she was my rock...and i will never forget her...unfortunately depression takes over us in such a strange way..some of us will heal quickly,and some of us will take longer...on a personal note i cant speak for you,but all you have to remember is you gave him a good life..and time is a great healer...
here's my verse to my gismo,maybe it will give you peace as well..good luck
May I Go? May I go now?
Do you think the time is right?
May I say good-bye to pain-filled days
and endless lonely nights?
I’ve lived my life and done my best,
an example tried to be.
So can I take that step beyond
and set my spirit free?
I didn’t want to go at first;
I fought with all my might.
But something seems to draw me now
to a warm and loving light.
I want to go. I really do.
It’s difficult to stay.
But I will try as best I can
to live just one more day,
to give you time to care for me
and share your love and fears.
I know you’re sad and so afraid,
because I see your tears.
I’ll not be far, I promise that,
and hope you’ll always know
that my spirit will be close to you,
wherever you may go.
Thank you so for loving me.
You know I love you too.
That’s why it’s hard to say good-bye
and end this life with you.
So hold me now, just one more time
and let me hear you say,
because you care so much for me,
you’ll let me go today.